Missing The Drama

So, I should be a senior in highschool this year. However, with two months left of my summer, the only thing I have to look forward to is another greuling quarter at the local community college. But that's great, right? Starting college early and all is a fantastic opportunity. Riiight.

Being seventeen and in college is nowhere near as fun as I thought it would be! It's hard work, and I'm having one hell of a time fitting in. Everybody is older. No big deal, I thought- age doesn't matter. And truly, it doesn't. Age is nothing but a number. However, at this point in my life, being surrounded by people who are older than myself, I suddenly feel very inexperienced. Someone very dear to me calls me a 'naive little writer'. I never really thought about it...it was just cute. But damn, does being in college at seventeen make me feel naive!

It's difficult too, to be myself and still try to be accepted. Most of my classmates don't know my age. I've always passed as being a little older than I am, so they assume I'm 19-20. But there are other problems with that, such as an inability to hang out with most people (men, especially) over 18. I don't mind, but they do, once they find out that I'm a minor. And while I'm not interested in romantic involvement, it puts a block on a lot of friendships, too.

Anyway, the summer is nearing an end, and I'm not at all looking forward to this quarter. I have one more biology class to take, and some philosophy and psychology classes that look interesting, as well as an ancient & medieval art class that looks fantastic. And yet, I'm going to miss my old friends, and the general drama of highschool!

I hated all that drama and nonsense while I was there, and never really got into any of it. It seemed pointless and immature. But being away from it all...I miss just being around the stupidity, even if I didn't partake (much!) in it. Sure, I'll be going back for my best friend's prom, but I don't get to see her every day like I used to either, and that's really irritating. I've just boughten my prom dress. I wish I was still around my old friends, though. It feels as though I should be worrying about dances and parties and SATs, and instead I've spent the last year worrying about passing college classes.

I guess some things just aren't all they're made out to be. But...this is an opportunity I couldn't pass up. This is my future I'm talking about. So I can't regret the decision to leave highschool two years early....right?